Im not sure that ive ever been this happy...

First off id jes like to say that the past few months  have been amazing.  Everything in my life jes seems to be falling into place.  God has routinely stepped in and stomped out my worries daily and proven to me time and time again that he really does answer prayers.  I used to worry about the future, like where i was going to college, my job situation, my love life, friends, and more importantly, what i have to offer God and his kingdom.  I've always been fairly complacent when it came to church and stuff.  I really have a hard time reading the bible because it has always bored me.  I always make excuses like its ADD or something, but the truth is im lazy.  But lately ive been doing alot of thinking and alot more praying and my life has been gradually improving.  Im going to start to make a conscious effor to read my bible so i can become close to him but also i want to begin to use my spiritual gifts for him as well.  Hes given me so much i feel like i dont give enough back.  So i sat down and thought about what i have to offer God and i realized a few things im good at.  1:  Im a very good public speaker. My parents used to tell me i should be a lawyer all the time because of how well i speak.  This doesnt mean i want to pursue preaching or anything, but somehow i need to start using this gift. 2:   Im poetic.  Believe it or not i can write poetry.  I didnt know it till this year but the more and more i write the better i become and the more i enjoy it.  I had taken a couple months off from writing for no apparent reason and when i started up again i realized how much i had missed it.  Erin has been on the receiving end of most of my poetic moments later but she should be.  Shes an amazing girl and i dont know what i did before her.  Shes absolutely stolen the heart from my chest and captivated my every thought.  So its no wonder shes been the subject of my writings.  However i think its about time i started aiming that ability at God.  King David wrote some of the most beautiful  poetry ive ever heard in Psalms.  Only something God inspired could sound that good.  So i think thats where im going to start in my reading of the bible.  Psalms and Proverbs. I want to realize my true writing ability and be inspired by God the way David was.  I really do long for that relationship....i just dont know how to pursue it.  So with those two gifts i feel like i can bring at least something to Gods kingdom.  I mean hes blessed me with an amazing and understanding family.  Hes also blessed me with an awesome group of friends who, even though im not always around, i feel fully confident they would drop everything to help me out.  Hes also given me a very loving girlfriend who ive already mentioned who has slowly become my best friend.  God has blessed all of these relationships and theyve been amazing.  So a relationship with him should be even better.  I mean, hes been amazing in my life so far and i havent even been taking our relationship seriously.  Once i do that im fully confident God will work through me in ways most people cant even imagine. 

Well im pretty sure ive been rambling but its late and ive been feeling a lil inspired.  I cant believe its taken 18 years to realize my stupidity for not following him closely.  I want to be a part of God and his eternal kingdom. 

I have so much to be thankful for.  Gods given me everything i need and now its time to return the favor.  World here i come.

hey guys its me again...so i was sitting here and i decided to pose a question...

does anyone actually read this site....i know i read my friends jes to kind of keep a tab on there lives but i didnt know if anyone would actually be interested in reading mine...so i thought id ask.  if i have enough feedback i might try to make posting a weekly thing...if not then i wont...simple as that.   anywho even if u dont plan on readin this u know i appreciate hearing how sexy i am...lol.  leave comments.

Boredom has sunk in....

I really need a job, but i really dont want one...im prolly gonna jes wait till im at mtsu this fall.

If anyone actually reads these things let me know by leaving me a sweet lil comment about how much u freakin love me or how sexy i am, either will suffice....thats right i wanna know. 

Well not that this hasnt been fun, haha, but i really need to go...ok maybe i really dont but i really dont feel like typing anymore.

well well look at this im back after a couple month hiatus....lol.  I had a request to once again start posting on here so i figured what the heck why not.  I've also decided im gonna try and not complain like most people do on these sites but simply post good stuff thats goin on or stuff i think people need to hear....important dates etc....cause we all have enough bad crap that goes on in our lives and no one needs to here about everyone else's garbage too... well now that ive gotten that out ill get right down to business....the last couple of months have been a blast and ive been busier than ever...with school, sports, girls, church etc.  id jes like to say that god is awesome and if anyone out there ever has a problem jes turn to god and find someone older and wiser than yourself (this means not a peer or someone just barely older than yourself) to help u through the tough times.  I find that young people give pretty crappy advice including myself ( so please dont ask me to help u get through any kind of problem cause ive had any easy life and probably wont be able to relate to u)...well now that im through with that lil piece of cynicism we'll move right along.... anyway back to the life is going great part....hmmm where to start, well my relationships with people are goin pretty well now with only a few minor annoyances here and there but hey i can put up with a lotta crap so it dont bother me none and things with the family couldn't be goin better.  i really appreciate my parents now (only took 17 years to realize) and am really glad that god put them in my life.  Baseball has been goin pretty well cause weve been throwin in the barn every day and it looks like i might actually have some control this year...YAY! (for those that dont know i have some really nasty stuff jes have a lil walk issue if u get my drift).  Church has been goin pretty well lately and ive cleared up most of the problems i have in my life...im definately not saying im perfect or anything cause i still mess up all the time i jes feel better about the way ive been living lately. School's also goin really well mainly cause i dropped all AP classes and am sticking to the easy schedule this year...i mean with drama and weightlifting how can u go wrong? lol.  Anyway this thing has been long enough and i hope i actually get some comments from this since i took the time to start this thing back up but till next time ill leave yall with a lil song.  This is Edwin McCain with "I'll Be" and if u dont think this is one of the greatest songs uve ever hear.... i WILL fight you...LOL enjoy

"I'll Be" by Edwin McCain

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated
I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

[Chorus:]
I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache, that hang from above

[Repeat Chorus]

I've been dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, Remembered the things that you said

[Repeat Chorus]